"I Will Never"

I'm sure everyone can relate... when we're younger and things don't go our way with parents we always used to say " I will never do that with my kids." Boy was I wrong. Obviously, the apple does not fall far from the tree because I have followed in my mother's footsteps. Let me give you a walk down memory lane before I go any further.... My mom was a stay at home mom, and a wonderful one she was. So, because of this I was very loved, nurtured and some people might say down right spoiled. For example, I was on the teet until I was three. Yes, Yes I was. I'm not ashamed to say it, sorry if I just embarrassed you mom, but I was. This was the first "I will never" for me. When it came to breastfeeding for me, I got very discouraged by my lactation nurse which caused me to give up on it before he was even 3 days old. However, I did pump for a month. Whoo, what a chore! So I stuck to my word on that one. When I was younger, around 3 or 4, I LOVED to go shopping with my mom --- still do. In fact, I loved it so much that I would hide in the clothes racks, wander away from my mother and not answer when she would call my mom. Well, I would when I could tell her voice get very upset. So, I got put on a leash. Yes, you heard right.. I was one of those kids on a leash, who I'm sure we all stare at when we actually come across one of those "kids." Again, my second " I will never". My leash didn't last long as I learned very quickly how to "unhook" myself. There went that idea. Luckily, I haven't had to leash my child yet since he's only six months old, but I plan not to either. Now, for the reason why I made this specific blog.... "I WILL NEVER LET MY CHILD SLEEP WITH ME." I had the occasional "sleepover" with mom and dad in their bed, late into teens.... HA Joke.. more like 8. :| Anyways, I vowed not to start the habit with my child because I saw how often I wanted to sleep with my parents. I didn't want to start that! Well, I did. Now, I'm afraid I'm the reason for my son's new sleep pattern. At two months, he started sleeping through the night. That has vanished, along with my sleep, the past couple of weeks. I don't knwo if his lack of sleep is teething, hungry, wet or just down right temper tantrum because he realizes that he's not in mommy and daddy's bed. I know he's only 6 months old but they know, right?!!?! I believe the reason we started this habit was because we recently got a roommate who sleeps in the room next to Peyton. I think Jake and I's thoughts were " Dont wake up Mario, bring Peyton in our room." I think the habit just stuck. With last night's episode, us barely sleeping, I think I'm banishing this co-sleeping habit before it becomes worse than it already is. With the lack of sleep we got, I'm surprised I'm actually able to function at work. Oh yea, it's called Coffee. On a lighter note... THANK GOD for grandma's as my mom has volunteered to watch Peyton overnight so we can sleep the whole night through! Thank you mom, you are my lifesaver--- in more ways than one! =)

Moral of the story kids.... NEVER SAY NEVER. You most likely won't follow through with that.

Much love